Lots of familial type stress happening here in Squeeland. Lots of anxiety for me. Not about anything specific, just sort of free floating anxiety. Which stresses me out even more.
Anxious about going outside to run alone in the dark (anxiety anyone?) so I'm not going to do it, and mother-in-law is in bed so can't do the elliptical. And I feel like I really need to do my run. But isn't it a little hasty and not very bright to go against my better judgment and run somewhere were I am not comfortable? Or isn't that the whole spirit of the sport? To push beyond ones limitations. Hmmm...I don't think better judgment is considered a limitation, but I can't decide if this is just my anxiety flaring up or if it's actually my gut telling me (correctly) to stay inside tonight.
I think I'm going to make a cake (Vanilla sponge filled with a lemon pastry cream...nom nom nom) and think about it, and maybe get myself out of bed in the morning and go for a run then. Oooof. Really don't want to see all the people driving by and looking at me. ARRRRRGHHH! I HATE being anxious. (See all above text? Mini-anxiety attack. Blows.)
I have learned to pay attention to my gut feelings. When they say don't go to me, I don't go. On the other hand a cute little can of mace or pepper spray wouldn't be a bad idea. jk
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