Day 20

Day 20

Wow-e! Have I had my hands full the last few days! I'm sorry I haven’t been updating everyday -Thanks for the guilt trip sis :)-

I wasn’t able to cross train yesterday. AND IT SUCKED I’m like an addict. I am itching to get back on the running horse. My right knee has been bending backwards at the most inopportune times. And I need to start doing the prescribed knee exercises.
I'm surprised that I haven’t found a way to make it happen. See? When you don’t make things a priority they don’t happen.

I'm worried that on my run tonight I will suddenly find that I have fallen out of love with running. The idea of that freaks me out. I'm also worried that I will lose all the progress I have made. And that if I have I wont want to start over. Oof. Who knew such a simple thing would be s mentally heavy. My physical therapist-in-training sister-in-law is going to look at my feet tomorrow and see if my gait has anything to do with my knees. I think being 273 pounds has everything to do with my knees.

Run recap:

Holy fuckballs. I'll get to that in a minute. So, Louie couldn’t wait to go out. It was very very cute. We did a very slow, I'm talking glacial pace run. But we did it for 4 blocks. And now I am in excruciating pain. Am starting knee strengthening tomorrow.For sure. I must have looked really pathetic because my father-in-law brought me ibuprofen and ice packs while I whimpered on the couch. Am doing EM tomorrow. Hopefully it doesn't make me cry.